Crying in Germany
Damn it.
It happened. I didn't want it to, but it just came along and happened in an elaborate, body numbing, eye puffing, heart shattering extravaganza.
I got homesick.
And it's not like I am a miserable sap! In fact, I can't imagine doing anything more valuable with my time than being here, in Germany. But an ache for the familiar just swallowed me whole. Listening to the Replacements in the kitchen, while my dad cooks dinner. Taking walks with my friends, and knowing exactly where to go.The Green Mountains. My mom's hugs.
But the most wonderful and unbearable part of this sickening feeling is that it gives your home an identity. And you realize that you love it more than you could have ever thought possible. Homesickness is a happy thing. It reminds me that I have a loving, incredible universe to come back to after this little detour is just a memory.
So, the moral of the story is, if you're gonna sob like a madman at some point in this one year of life, at least try to do it in another country.
It happened. I didn't want it to, but it just came along and happened in an elaborate, body numbing, eye puffing, heart shattering extravaganza.
I got homesick.
And it's not like I am a miserable sap! In fact, I can't imagine doing anything more valuable with my time than being here, in Germany. But an ache for the familiar just swallowed me whole. Listening to the Replacements in the kitchen, while my dad cooks dinner. Taking walks with my friends, and knowing exactly where to go.The Green Mountains. My mom's hugs.
But the most wonderful and unbearable part of this sickening feeling is that it gives your home an identity. And you realize that you love it more than you could have ever thought possible. Homesickness is a happy thing. It reminds me that I have a loving, incredible universe to come back to after this little detour is just a memory.
So, the moral of the story is, if you're gonna sob like a madman at some point in this one year of life, at least try to do it in another country.
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