One Month Mark!
WELL. A lot has gone down since I stepped off the plan on September 5th in the Frankfurt airport.
I think I have grown up as a human being in this past month more than I have in the past year. And that whole process of "growing", which I am sure all of you human beings are aware of, is not entirely fun and dandy. Because, it's not really supposed to be, is it? And that's the best part!
In the past month especially, I have felt lost. "Why am I here? what exactly is the right way to do...this? And what even is "this", anyhow?" And let me tell you, no matter how convincing it may seem, the answers to all of these questions are surprisingly not hidden in that beautiful and forever tempting Alpenmilch Ritter Sport bar. So yeah, why is this awesome again?
BECAUSE, we all feel these feelings, right? In the nighttime, alone in our beds. Exchange, at least in the beginning, is a super-saturated, highly sensitized version of that "what is life? #bedtime" feeling, ALL THE TIME. So it's like a deep-thinking power workout for your mind, and we all know working out sucks.
BUT, when your done with that terrible workout, and when the morning comes, and when you finally begin to feel slightly comfortable in this entirely new place, you simply come out stronger. And, it takes time, just like anything that's worth anything. I expect to feel lost again (ahem, yeah, first day of school tomorrow.), but now I know that I will come out a little bit stronger in the end. My brain knows how to handle this all a little bit better, because it worked so hard the first time. And that's kind of cool.
What else is cool? PIG KNUCKLE. It's a typical Bavarian delicacy. I tried some yesterday at yet another Oktoberfest, and although it was crunchy on the outside, the inside was like pulled pork. So, therefore, it equaled a happy Clara.
I also attempted tennis yesterday. HAHA to that. But, for some reason, I want to keep trying. That's another thing I have learned in the past month. Trying is kind of fun.
I think I have grown up as a human being in this past month more than I have in the past year. And that whole process of "growing", which I am sure all of you human beings are aware of, is not entirely fun and dandy. Because, it's not really supposed to be, is it? And that's the best part!
In the past month especially, I have felt lost. "Why am I here? what exactly is the right way to do...this? And what even is "this", anyhow?" And let me tell you, no matter how convincing it may seem, the answers to all of these questions are surprisingly not hidden in that beautiful and forever tempting Alpenmilch Ritter Sport bar. So yeah, why is this awesome again?
BECAUSE, we all feel these feelings, right? In the nighttime, alone in our beds. Exchange, at least in the beginning, is a super-saturated, highly sensitized version of that "what is life? #bedtime" feeling, ALL THE TIME. So it's like a deep-thinking power workout for your mind, and we all know working out sucks.
BUT, when your done with that terrible workout, and when the morning comes, and when you finally begin to feel slightly comfortable in this entirely new place, you simply come out stronger. And, it takes time, just like anything that's worth anything. I expect to feel lost again (ahem, yeah, first day of school tomorrow.), but now I know that I will come out a little bit stronger in the end. My brain knows how to handle this all a little bit better, because it worked so hard the first time. And that's kind of cool.
What else is cool? PIG KNUCKLE. It's a typical Bavarian delicacy. I tried some yesterday at yet another Oktoberfest, and although it was crunchy on the outside, the inside was like pulled pork. So, therefore, it equaled a happy Clara.
I also attempted tennis yesterday. HAHA to that. But, for some reason, I want to keep trying. That's another thing I have learned in the past month. Trying is kind of fun.
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